I write about narcissism a lot. Haven't published that shit here yet... there's been a lot going on... but I'm in the safest place I have right now (a home away from home--wherever that is--the way things have transpired, I'm actually homeless right now, in a class privileged way--but I digress) I'm going to write… Continue reading i wasn’t asking for it, but eventually i learned to
I've been thinking about inverted relationships a lot; the trauma of having to parent your parents from a young age, of being forced into roles not of your choosing, before you're ready for them, and before you know enough to ever think to say no. Children are curious by nature and we wander exuberantly, innocently… Continue reading Little Girl elder
this is a complicated topic, both in general and for me. I'm hesitant to wear those old narrative grooves—of autistics as asexual and awkwardly sex-repulsed, or as inappropriately sexual little animals—in any deeper; yet I think I have to because those both apply to me? It's taking me a long time to figure out how… Continue reading ace nymph like me – is it an autistic thing?
Ugh sorry for the Dad joke. I've been stuck at home alone with my father dearest all weekend and it's rubbing off I think... Let's talk about something else though: I slept though something that was important to me today. It turned out to be not such a big deal, but the guilt of missing… Continue reading hello Spoonie Guilt, my old friend
cw: r*pe, post trauma breakdown, loss of function, autistic burnout, girlhood/gender binarism It all feels wrong. Can't eat, can't breathe, can't speak, can't move, can't stand, can't sit, can't lie down, can't remember anything, can't remember what you were going to say or that you already said it, can't function, can't pack to go home for… Continue reading can’t do anything the same with a rib out
Stupid child. Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid child stupid child stupid child stupid stupid Why are your senses off? Who turned them off for you and why have you not turned them back on again They keep trying to come back on, why to you keep running around the house of your Self turning… Continue reading Burn
I caught some kindergarten cooties on top of my usual, chronic illness recently, and this morning I coughed so hard I threw up and my rib just.. popped out. Ouch. It's because my connective tissue forms too soft, but that's a story for another day. This post is about something else, not entirely unrelated... cw:… Continue reading I dislocated a rib today
Yeah, about that... It's hard to define, really. We're autism-spectrum witches, but the two are inextricable: Autistic. Witch. Where does one end and the other begin? I've been thinking a lot about how autistics get witch hunted, and how a lot of autistic behaviours, rituals, truthfulness, ways of being, sensing, (not) speaking, experiencing, etc. etc.… Continue reading Soo… neurowitch?
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